Reject Depression

Reject Depression

Book an appointment for a free “End Depression Now” coaching session.

  1.   We’ll work together to create a crystal-clear vision for the kind of life you’d like to have.
  2.   You’ll uncover hidden challenges that may be sabotaging your happiness and satisfaction of life.
  3.   And you’ll leave the session renewed, re-energized and inspired to live the life of your dreams.

My life began with what is officially called “childhood emotional neglect”. In addition, I was terrorized every day. So my job in our house was to be invisible. It may seem strange, but because the environment at home was consistent I knew what to expect. I knew I was nothing. Out in the world I was bewildered and confused. I had no understanding of people, and why they did the things they did. I had no sense of self, no self-esteem, and no personal power.

To a young child, neglect is trauma.

When a young child is traumatized they feel it’s their fault. The alternative, that the people supposed to care for them are at fault, is too much to deal with because their life depends on that care. As a result, I had the feeling there was something deeply wrong with me, that I was “not good enough”. I carried that feeling for many years into adulthood.

In my teens I got into drugs and alcohol, and when I was 27 had a major psychological crisis.

I developed OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) with the recurring thought that I was a disgusting person. And that led to 35 years severe depression.

I seriously considered suicide. But I wanted so badly for my two young children to have a good father, the opposite of what I’d had, that I decided not to do it, and stay and work through my problems. There are many variations of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Although I had the obsessive thoughts I never had the compulsive actions, so I never hurt anybody. I just made myself very unhappy.

Most of the time I was able to keep working, which is called “functional depression”, but I was painfully alone. And when I saw a person walking down the street, I would wish I was them. When I saw someone die on TV I would feel very relaxed, like they’d finally found peace. And I developed a death wish.

Fortunately I started to believe in reincarnation, which said that whatever life lessons you don’t learn in this lifetime, you’ll have to learn in your next lifetime. And there was no way I was going to go through the misery of this lifetime again, so I decided to stay and learn whatever I needed to learn to live a happy life.

I developed an insatiable drive for personal growth.

During those years I did so many low paying jobs. Most of them could have developed into something good, but my self-esteem was so low I never did well. I learned to live on very little money and had huge credit card debts. For many years I floundered, just trying everything I could to learn to get out of depression and live a good life. I often struggled for a long time trying to learn something I thought would help, only to find it was either a complete waste of time or made things worse.

My journey to a happy and productive life would have been so much quicker
if I’d had an experienced guide.

Then when I was 47 I joined a meditation group, and my understanding of people and the world increased significantly. In the 24 years since then I changed my life completely. I became more of the man I always wanted to be. But I do not teach meditation. I teach the life lessons I learned over 24 years of meditation on how to get out of depression and live a great life.

Gradually I gained control of my thoughts, increased my self-esteem, created a successful business, wrote an Amazon Number 1 Best Selling book, made good friends, and built a life filled with meaning and purpose. My friends and family are even coming to me for advice.

I can honestly say that one day in my life now is worth all the years of my suffering.

Until I found out how wonderful life can be, I never would have believed it. And I always remember that without the years of my suffering I couldn’t have learned how to help people get out of depression and live a happy life. I got Certified as a Life Coach and never looked back. Book an appointment now for a free “End Depression Now” coaching session with me.

I look forward to hearing your story,
Ken Lapp
Things are going to get easier